"Do you have my running shorts?" why would i even have those ew. yes. they are bring the foods home. //glares at sister// she left my fucking closet open //glares at her again// when do you think you will send your letter out? :u http://www.coolmath-games.com/0-2048/ also i hate this game but i can't not play it
What even- heuheu. FOOD HECK YES- Ugh. I hate when people leave my doors open dfgdshgsj- Probably tomorrow. ;v; *Reads the link* math games omg *checks out*
my sister just asked where all the towels where and i laughed and said they were probs under my bed x3 yes raising canes has hella good fries :u is my weakness. same but especially my closet because that's where all my demons live aka the scary shit. ALSO I'M P SURE I WAS HALLUCINATING ON THE BUS RIDE HOME BECAUSE I WAS HELLA TIRED //walks to bathroom// UHM saw a little floyd cute as FUCK man ow my hand i whacked it on the trash can //walks back to room// I THINK MY PARENTS ARE HOME NOW i'm surprised this site hasn't been blocked yet man :u
oh well that was fun until i fucked up but i don't really want to explain :u i'm wet and cold now yeah i hallucinate my characters all the time like Wings and Gabbi and shit but floyd was new it was fun and cute ugh these cuts on my leg are bugging the fuck out of me //word vomits not the puke i want//
i am a horrible person right now because i cannot make myself throw up i mean like i just fucking tried and all i got was a little bit of fry and a lot a mucus OUT OF MY NOSE and its not like i get sick either i just get nauseous and i don't know how people can make themselves puke i fucking envy them //narrows eyes// i am a horrible nacho ashlynn i just want to make myself FEEL BETTER DAMMIT >:'1
i just confused the hell out of my mom and myself ahah also i spat this huge glob of mucus out and it landed on my chin and it was gross yes //comment spam//
DID YOU GET A PIECE OF FRY OUT OF YOUR NOSE-??? OMFG Idk how to forcefully make myself throw up fdsgfsj Alyssa does tho. You're not horrible though, if it helps, then it's worth a try. Also sorry for not contacting you today really, I've been busy cleaning around the house. I feel bad for the past few days being sick, making my mom work fsdghjgs- Made her come home early I think...yesterday. Or the day before, idk. fgshfsj- I feel better today though, ACTUALLY HAD AN APPETITE WOOT WOOT MOTHER FUCKING CONSUMED ALMOST A WHOLE PIZZAAAAAAAAAAAA- *screams happily* How is Tori?
no, just mucus :u i just ate a bunch of pasta and it was good but now i want to go throw up fucking ednos //burps a little// i don't even know what this is like is it the medication or just me like sometimes i really enjoy the empty pit in my stomach like the pool + not eating idek man but //shrugs// its okay now i guess, you're here now I FEEL BETTER NOW YOU ARE MAGIC CHEESE. LIKE I FELT LIKE SHIT THE ENTIRE DAY LIKE WHEN I GOT HOME I SLEPT AND THE BUS DRIVER HURT MY BACK i was literally just going to go back to sleep but you're here THAT'S AMAZING WHEN I WAS IN CROSS COUNTRY IN A GALAXY FAR AWAY WE WENT TO A PIZZA PLACE AFTER A MEET AND HAD A PIZZA EATING CONTEST AND I ATE LIKE 18-20 PIECES :U -screams with you-
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I LOVE PASTA TOO MAN AND SAME ALL THE WAY. i mean i havent yet. i'm too fucking lazy. i want to brush my teeth actually and i was thinking i could have stuck the tooth brush down my throat down my throat :u but like i'm too lazy man //could have done that shit yesterday// OKAY SO I WAS FEELING BAD FOR THE BUS DRIVER BECAUSE EVERYONE IS GIVING HER SHIT BUT SHE SPEEDS AND THERE IS THIS THING IN THE ROAD TO MAKE THE DRIVERS SLOW THE FUCK DOWN AND I WAS SLEEPING DREAMING ABOUT MESSAGING YOU AND MAYBE I WAS TENSE BECAUSE I WAS TRYING TO WAKE THE FUCK UP AND SHE HITS THIS FUCKING THING AND PAIN SHOOTS UP MY SPINE AND MY EYES SNAP OPEN AND EVERYONE IS LIKE WHAT EVEN THE FUCK AND I LOOK AT THE CHICK SITTING BEHIND ME AND SAY "and i felt sorry for her??" and she laughed like all SYMPATHY i felt the bus driver vanished because frankly she is being rude :u I HAVE LITERALLY SLEPT SINCE I GOT HOME MAN though i'm still tired idk it was after a meet man we had just ran and i could EAAAAAAT YAS like i want to go over to my neighbors and get the newspaper because there were a few others that i liked :D FARSIDEFARSIDEFARSIDE //FLAILS// //whispers calvin and hobbes//
okay so. uhm. i was trying to communicate with my sister telepathically (i don't think it worked) and like...i just heard a bunch of screaming in my head and shit and i'm pretty sure something grabbed my foot //laugh nervously and hugs the ash pillow// it was creep as fuck i'm not even kidding :u i'm thinking about asking my parents about doing their laundry in exchange for my phone :u
I hope you feel better soon though ;o; EUGH I HOPE YOUR BACK FEELS BETTER TOO THAT SOUNDS FUCKING AWFUL AAA *rubs ur back* *whispers back* fuck yes calvin and hobes Demons? oAo YOU SHOULD ASK THEM AHHHH- Also I don't feel sick anymore! well. A little nauseous but not as bad. Tbh I only drank as a means of over dosing and killing myself, but as you see. :I That didn't work. I'm sorry. *doesn't want to tell anyone about this or admit I did overdose*
AAAAAH- I'm sorry. I was just so fucking depressed, and lonely. I'm surrounded by people that only care about themselves, and shdsjfks- I feel like i'm literally here to just make people feel better about themselves, or ugh. Idk. I was listening to the things in my head, though I am not crazy, I just hear voices sometimes, and sometimes they get quite persuasive. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Fuck.
Cheese, i am a very selfish person but the things i do i do for you okay? the only reason...i live...is for..you...//gasps for breath// you make me feel like a better person but in turn i wann make youfeel like a better person too, okay?? MY PARENTS KEEP FUCKING CALLING MY AND DON'T WANT TO BE AROUND THEM BETWEEN CRYING OVER YOU AND THEM MAKING ME FEEL LIKE SHIT FOR EATING RICE //GRABS FACE// UGH i'll be right back
I'm in so much pain in my head. I just want it to go away, I can't vent as clearly as other people do, so I find it useless to even try. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have even tried. I regret it entirely. I haven't even told Alyssa, the person I tell everything to, for fear she might kill me herself. and also how upset she'll get with me bfdsjfhs- I'm a fucking mess.
It's not you! But ah, I'm sorry. I just. When I'm upset I turn off everything, and just?? Do shit I regret. Like once I tried stabbing a knife through my hand, and uGHH. I'm a shit person to be honest, I don't even know why I'm forced to be here. Alive. I'm just. So depressed. I wish you could be my reason for living, but. dsfhgfdjs- I find that kind of abusive? In a way? Sort of? Idk. WHY THE HELL ARE THEY GIVING YOU SHIT ABOUT RICE????
I can't even word like my parents and were showing down in the pantry and my mom was like i woke because i heard my mom say i think aileen ate the rice and i was like oh shit but like i tried to explain that there was not any shit to eat in the house but theres food now so she doesn't believe me :u and like i went downstairs to own up to it and be like i'll buy you another fucking rice i'm sorry i didn't tell you about it but then shit hit the fan. and i was just thinking about adam and eve and my dad said "i feel like i've heard this story before" and istartfuckinglaughing *holds your head* i mean it seriously fucking upsets me that you even tried but i would be more hurt if you never told me because i would like to know *hugs tightly and kisses your forehead* don't tell her until you're ready to we'll move and leave our messes sorta behind. when i'm upset it leaks out of my face and it upsets me more until it leaves scars on my body. Dude please make me your reason i don't fucking care :u //sweet dreams starts playing in head// basically they had asked me not eat the rice but there was fucking no food here :u
Ugh. Your mom. dsdhjskdhjsa- Same here, sorry for doing the do. Also I'm sorry about not messaging, I moved my desktop upstairs because mom needed room for the houseplants, dnfbsfjsa and blogger is fucking up on the computer? Like sometimes it doesn't log me in at all?? Like incorrect password?? I'm sorry. bdfdj how are things? *checks phone*...*sees how many times u called me* OMG I ALSO HAVE BEEN GONE ALL DAY WITH MOM AND GRANDMA I'M SORRY AHHHH
i am really at a loss for words right now like i'm just repeating oh my god. like i have been so fucking worried you don't even know ahh i have the biggest fucking smile now though :u
i can't even answer your question man i'm sorry basically i was super worried like i've lost five pounds?? and i'm sorry blogger is being bogus. how many times did i call you i'm sorry ahhh how are things with you??
what if there was an alternate universe where people loved showers and like there were mobile showers and showers were literally EVERYWHERE and we had to go to war with them because they were using up too much water and they thought our clothes were so weird they got scared and we won this war because of our clothes?? i swear to god i'm not high or tired i was just sitting here playing 2048 and THIS FUCKING THOUGHT POPS INTO MY HEAD AND I KNEW IT WOULD KILL TO ME TO FORGET IT SO
stress holy shit wow //makes a huge mess looking for my little notebook// damn i miss you //wipes face// i can't find it //literally throws everything on the floor and realizes that isn't going to help//
RIGHT AFTER U WENT HOME MOM FOUND AN ADAPTER THING AND NOW I HAVE INTERNETS LE FUCK YES. Also I'm sorry for whatever I may have done to anger you, in a ny way. I do that with people haha// all th e fucking tim eee ALSO THE IDEA ABOUT HAVING SHOWERS EVERYWHERE IS FUCKING FUNNY// BUT COOL. I love it. I love u. I wish google+ worked for you ghdfgjfdghjdf I wanna IM u all da time
My days haave consisted of being depressed, and thinking about death tbh. for some reason my thoughts have gotten worse? I refuse help from the fucking wards. I hate being stared at by the doctors, and watched constantly eugh. I'm so full of hatred, and I'm pushing people away. I've been using my moms shit laptop to google+ you, and eughh just using that thing makes me so fucking angry, because it's so fucked up. =c= I'm so glad I got to talk to you today, thank you. That really made me happy, which is hard to come by these days. orz *sulksulk smashes into bed* I love you.
YOU DID A THING AND YOUR BLOG ISN'T BLOG ISN'T BLACK ANYMORE AND YAY ; u ; this will probably be like the only time i will ever get... as.. mad as i did man.. just.. remember that i'm fucking here okay?? //makes noises// i just wanna be there by your side i would watch you all the fucking time though just you would never get rid of me i swear to god :u BECAUSE NEGATIVES MAKE EACH OTHER POSTIVE AND my sister just ran into the bathroom and like i need to use that.... cause..ahh I HAVE NO IDEA HOW THE CHAT WORKS FOR THIS http://www.kidzworld.com/ BUT LIKE?? i can't validate shit man ; . ; //this is only the second time i have lied about my age on the the internets// SAME I LOVE TALKING TO YOU. YOUR TIMING IS HORRIBLE THOUGH. I HAVE LIKE 20 MINUTES SOMETIMES 10 AND AHH I FEEL A LOT BETTER your letter should be there thursday :u
In a way, it was something you did, to be honest. I feel suffocated with your words, telling me i'm your reason for living. I don't take kindly to that. For one thing. I just. Really need time to think, I'm not pushing anyone away, I'm just going kinda?? nuts?? Idk how to explain it, but I'm the only person that can help myself, and that's going to take some time, I have to apologize, because I'm the one who was, and idk still am? Causing you pain
"don't. apologize. don't say you are sorry. just don't, please. i should be asleep right now. i can't though. i'm sorry for suffocating you. that was never what i meant to do. i just...want to help but i don't even fucking know how to. i mean..yeah. "Life is full of black holes, and the only person who can pull you out is you" but i would still like to help in any way i could. because i would. i just. ugh. i'm just really STUPID and this was almost like chrissy again. my fault.she stopped talking to me though and i hope this won't become like that. //hopes that we can at least be friends// so don't apologize. i can't stand it. it'll piss me off. like anyone who says it. and yeah. pain. don't even. get me started. AHAH, THIS DUDE FOUGHT OFF THIS FOX WITH BREAD PFFT and it could have had RABIES OMG so take your time to think. i will...still be here."
Since you don't have the laptop or whatnot anymore, guess I'll try to use this? I've been going through a straight up shit storm lately, and everything is fucking upsetting me. My mom's going against me because of drugs, and so is Randy. I've been throwing up for day's, and wow. Death sounds really welcoming, and I can't stop thinking of the way to end myself. I'm sorry for your pain, I wish I could ease it, and whatnot. But you know what? I can't. I wish I had some kind of inspirational thing to say, but, yeah. nah. I'm going to just start ignoring everyone, because it's just making me feel shittier, and I hope you understand. I don't really know what to say. I'm sorry doesn't cut it I suppose, for some reason? Nothing I say is going to help you not hurt, and whatnot. Being I think I broke you beyond repair, for a long while. I'm p useless when it comes to emotions, and understanding them. So I wish you luck in whatever.
//cries because i'm going to have to type all over again/flees to word/is surprised// dude i’m sorry. I feel you, sorta in way?? why is randy even getting involved? i’m sorry you’ve been puking for days but don’t end yourself. because it’ll pass. “you have no responsibility to anyone but yourself to live. BUT I’M DEAD, you would tell us. I’M ALREADY DEAD. no, we’d argue. no you are not. your future self is still alive. you have a responsibility to your future self, who is someone you might not even know yet, might not even understand yet. because until you die, that future self has as much of a life as you do. We can see that future self, even if you can’t. we can see them. you are not worthless, we shout to you. your life is not disposable. you think you will never find a place. you think your pain is the only emotion you will ever feel. you think nothing else will ever come close to being as strong as that pain. you are certain of this. in this minute- in this, the most important minute of your life- you are certain you must die. you no other option. you need to wake up, we cry.” this is from that book I read, two boys kissing. i'm glad you understand that you can’t. and i was never looking for you to ease any pain i feel. that’s my job yo. yeah, people are bogus. if i didn’t need them so fucking much i'd do the same. idk what really to say either man. never does :u i guess talking to you helps somewhat, a little. to know i'm not completely losing you. idk. but don’t worry about it, ash. i'm serious. this won’t be like chrissy all over again because i refuse to blame anyone but myself. “you almost made me cry again this time. well time i'm not going to watch myself die.” <:u just don’t. and i was okay with what you wrote it was the twins that greatly upset me, ahah. anywhore my parents are back and scaring the fuck out of me like… it feels like a weight is hanging over me. i feel like puking and i almost did. before you ever decide to finally off yourself //cringes inwardly at the thought// do you think you could at least move out and try to life?? don’t let your soul be tied down to a place you don’t like, yo. just try life somewhere new. like chicago :u idk what i'm even trying to say. but the question is do you understand??
also what does SPD stand for everything i googled said sensory processing disorder :u idk if that's what it is :u also on one of the pages idk if you remember but like, its the one where you drew randy and tori getting arrested and i can barely read that thing you wrote and its bugging me but it's someting about if he's in his for enough time //HOLDS PAPER UP AND SQUINTS INTENSELY// he can't speak and...interact... his other senses?? is that what it says i sorta have a headache ahh. sometimes almost killing himself. that picture made me tear up a little. poor floyd yo.
if he's in his head for long enough he can't speak and interact with his other senses?? idk what it says tbh. you probably don't remember either but alja;
Ay, can't stop thinking about you, every day, every second it seems like. Don't know why I'm writing this, but I miss you. I just really needed a break, from everything. I really hope you're okay. Why am I even doing this- I just can't get you out of my head, siGHS LOUDLY Sorry.
//stares// every day, every second. sometimes even dreams. i can't stop seeing you in things. i know, you made that clear. i miss you too, i think i wrote that in the letter, that i miss talking to you i'm fine, now. today is my birthday, i hope it goes well. and i hope you're okay too? i don't know why you did it, i'm surprised as well- welcome to the club, cheese. //chews on hoodie string// don't even.
dreams are bogus. canaan drew me a dragon ; u ; it just went. like any other day. another dose of "hey you aren't special and it doesn't even matter." plus i got a sore throat, hella. OD on nyquil i'm tired as shit. plus coffee, i should be out right now. i just get insanely pissed off, or insanely sad, or insanely happy. fuck this i hate it i want some middle ground i was rly confused about when it was supposed to show up. //bashes you with pillow// go outside, as in, just sit outside your door if you have to. who says you need to do anything. lay in grass, take a nap outside if you can. about the hellhound, i got lazy, really lazy and i was just nah. its from a sketch book i stole actually :u you should have at least 8 pages of it. been drawing eyeballs a lot as of late. i actually forgot to send a picture and i was so upset because it was francis. its old and what not but i remember spending so much time on his hair. n eyes. next time. ye, oscar ; . ; //looks back through google to pick out another random character// the ginger needs a name, yo. i was sorta happy with the picture. and his hands hella i don't see it but i'll take your word for it //only sees improvement in how i draw transit// i know it's not funny lolol you've improved a lot too you know :u FUCK YES I GOT THE 69TH COMMENT AHAHAH
dreams are rad, but can be bogus, haha. ;v; ooooh- ah. dang. D: I'm sorry, yo. Ohmygod Nyquil- B) That shits the bomb, though it makes me feel so ded...oh so ded. *nodnods* When what was supposed to show up? *tilts head* Lmfao fuck the outdoors, it keeps randomly snowing, and ugh. I dislike the city, I miss living surrounded by the woods, and wildlife scREAMS S I MISS THE SOUND OF A CONSTANT STREAM HHh h that shit's fuckin' wicked. =c= Peaceful. You should draw teh hellhound more! I think it's a p cool concept tbh. Eyeballs are wicked 2 draw, and addicting heuheu- Idk how you can't see you're improvement, I mean damn mAN You improved so quickly, B) *pappaps* thank you, though ha HA HA HA FUCKIN' ARTBLOCK SHITSTORMS ONTO MY THINKING MUSCLE AGAIN LMAO The best comment B) Sorry for not messagin' back sooner,but I've been quite blazed, and pissy haha. I'm sending a shit letter out tomorrow, so be on the look-out. =c= or not. Whatever. My friend frown offered to send me LSD and holy fuCK K- she super rad. 2 rad 4 me
Tru Hella B) OH MAN, I have a hate/love relationship with snow, like around January it gets kind of tiring, shoveling it out of the driveway dfhfskjdshk I'mSorryAh My old art is sickening, buT IT DOES HELP with helping you realize yo improvement, n stuff- ye. Arts is 2 much 4 me 2 handle- i can't keep a consistent style hughh HEUHEUE- OH NO. AHH. That's good you're trying not to relapse! I'm proud of ya. c; What made you sad? ;o; oh nooo headphones wahhh Lisa said it's really relaxing, though you smile, and laugh a lot. And your stomach burns, but not like alcohol does ideK I'm sorry D: Ahhhhh- What's Half-Baked? *tilts head* Guessing its a movie?
oh ye, dreams. i wish i could remember them WHO NEEDS PARENTS i'm 18 and i need a job so i can gtfo WHEN I GET THERE, I WOULD TOTES HELP MAN i'll probably end up playing in it at first though, until i get way too cold. youshouldbe. old art makes me laugh like "this is really gross ew but i can't throw it out i'll redraw it." art is 2 much 4 every1. consistency is stupid. but i can't either. when i have trouble drawing i know i'm going through a style change ; - ; AND THEN LIKE POOOOF SPECTACULAR ARTS and then it dies //cycles// "tori i'm sorry for laughing i was reading and typing and ahh" i hope u understand that. hmm, what made me sad? my parents were being shits, or i'm being too fucking sensitive, i'm feeling a lot of oppression, and i just want to open a vein in my wrist like the visual i got was spectacular. but i could never go that deep yo. and then moo gets on and i mention gabbi and then he says he's angry but not at me and leaves and i got really fucking upset because you can tell me all u want it's not my fault and i almost let him make me break my promise. no relapse for my 18th birthday i can fucking do it i can i can i can i can i hope ; - ; i wanna relax smile and laugh a lot ;-; i've never had alcohol burn my stomach. just..that vodka though..one time stopit YEA IT'S A MOVIE ABOUT THE TANGERINES. SPEAKING OF TANGERINES, I MAY BE SMOKING TANGERINES W/MY FRIEND CANAAN IN A FEW WEEKS ; v ; there's an initiation though: jumping from her balcony onto the trampoline and i'm just ";-; im afraid of heights tho" annndddd i'll be taking my guitar so she can fix it . u . my fingers are wimpy and i can't find my pick ; - ; oh and i'll be smoking with her mom //excited as fuck really// I'M GONNA MEET BRODY AND I'VE HEARD SO MANY STORIES ABOUT HIM LIKE HE'S ONLY 9 BUT HE'S SO FUCKING COOL ASH I CANNOOOT
it was just my sister man :u //was expecting the food//
ReplyDeleteTHATS GOOD, I was worried. Are they gonna be bringing food home?
ReplyDelete"Do you have my running shorts?" why would i even have those ew. yes. they are bring the foods home. //glares at sister// she left my fucking closet open //glares at her again//
ReplyDeletewhen do you think you will send your letter out? :u
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What even- heuheu. FOOD HECK YES- Ugh. I hate when people leave my doors open dfgdshgsj-
ReplyDeleteProbably tomorrow. ;v;
*Reads the link* math games omg *checks out*
my sister just asked where all the towels where and i laughed and said they were probs under my bed x3 yes raising canes has hella good fries :u is my weakness. same but especially my closet because that's where all my demons live aka the scary shit. ALSO I'M P SURE I WAS HALLUCINATING ON THE BUS RIDE HOME BECAUSE I WAS HELLA TIRED //walks to bathroom// UHM saw a little floyd cute as FUCK man ow my hand i whacked it on the trash can //walks back to room// I THINK MY PARENTS ARE HOME NOW
ReplyDeletei'm surprised this site hasn't been blocked yet man :u
my parents are still not home
ReplyDeletethere they are also my sister wants me to go swimming with her so :u
ReplyDeleteoh well that was fun until i fucked up but i don't really want to explain :u i'm wet and cold now yeah i hallucinate my characters all the time like Wings and Gabbi and shit but floyd was new it was fun and cute ugh these cuts on my leg are bugging the fuck out of me //word vomits not the puke i want//
ReplyDeletei'm about three seconds away from sticking some fingers down my throat ash :3
ReplyDeletealso most of my clothes are under my bed because i'm too lazy to put them away and really have no where to put them actually
ReplyDeletei am a horrible person right now because i cannot make myself throw up i mean like i just fucking tried and all i got was a little bit of fry and a lot a mucus OUT OF MY NOSE and its not like i get sick either i just get nauseous and i don't know how people can make themselves puke i fucking envy them //narrows eyes// i am a horrible nacho ashlynn
ReplyDeletei just want to make myself FEEL BETTER DAMMIT >:'1
i just confused the hell out of my mom and myself ahah also i spat this huge glob of mucus out and it landed on my chin and it was gross yes //comment spam//
ReplyDeletei hope you're okay ashlynn
ReplyDeleteDID YOU GET A PIECE OF FRY OUT OF YOUR NOSE-??? OMFG
ReplyDeleteIdk how to forcefully make myself throw up fdsgfsj Alyssa does tho. You're not horrible though, if it helps, then it's worth a try.
Also sorry for not contacting you today really, I've been busy cleaning around the house. I feel bad for the past few days being sick, making my mom work fsdghjgs- Made her come home early I think...yesterday. Or the day before, idk. fgshfsj-
I feel better today though, ACTUALLY HAD AN APPETITE WOOT WOOT MOTHER FUCKING CONSUMED ALMOST A WHOLE PIZZAAAAAAAAAAAA- *screams happily*
How is Tori?
no, just mucus :u
ReplyDeletei just ate a bunch of pasta and it was good but now i want to go throw up fucking ednos //burps a little// i don't even know what this is like is it the medication or just me like sometimes i really enjoy the empty pit in my stomach like the pool + not eating idek man but //shrugs//
its okay now i guess, you're here now
I FEEL BETTER NOW YOU ARE MAGIC CHEESE. LIKE I FELT LIKE SHIT THE ENTIRE DAY LIKE WHEN I GOT HOME I SLEPT AND THE BUS DRIVER HURT MY BACK
i was literally just going to go back to sleep but
you're here
THAT'S AMAZING
WHEN I WAS IN CROSS COUNTRY IN A GALAXY FAR AWAY WE WENT TO A PIZZA PLACE AFTER A MEET AND HAD A PIZZA EATING CONTEST AND I ATE LIKE 18-20 PIECES :U -screams with you-
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I LOVE PASTA TOO MAN AND SAME ALL THE WAY.
ReplyDeletei mean i havent yet. i'm too fucking lazy. i want to brush my teeth actually and i was thinking i could have stuck the tooth brush down my throat down my throat :u but like i'm too lazy man //could have done that shit yesterday//
OKAY SO I WAS FEELING BAD FOR THE BUS DRIVER BECAUSE EVERYONE IS GIVING HER SHIT BUT SHE SPEEDS AND THERE IS THIS THING IN THE ROAD TO MAKE THE DRIVERS SLOW THE FUCK DOWN AND I WAS SLEEPING DREAMING ABOUT MESSAGING YOU AND MAYBE I WAS TENSE BECAUSE I WAS TRYING TO WAKE THE FUCK UP AND SHE HITS THIS FUCKING THING AND PAIN SHOOTS UP MY SPINE AND MY EYES SNAP OPEN AND EVERYONE IS LIKE WHAT EVEN THE FUCK AND I LOOK AT THE CHICK SITTING BEHIND ME AND SAY "and i felt sorry for her??" and she laughed like all SYMPATHY i felt the bus driver vanished because frankly she is being rude :u
I HAVE LITERALLY SLEPT SINCE I GOT HOME MAN though i'm still tired idk
it was after a meet man we had just ran and i could EAAAAAAT
YAS like i want to go over to my neighbors and get the newspaper because there were a few others that i liked :D
FARSIDEFARSIDEFARSIDE //FLAILS//
//whispers calvin and hobbes//
//narrows eyes// i see i have repeated myself oop
ReplyDeleteokay so. uhm. i was trying to communicate with my sister telepathically (i don't think it worked) and like...i just heard a bunch of screaming in my head and shit and i'm pretty sure something grabbed my foot //laugh nervously and hugs the ash pillow// it was creep as fuck i'm not even kidding :u
ReplyDeletei'm thinking about asking my parents about doing their laundry in exchange for my phone :u
I hope you feel better soon though ;o;
ReplyDeleteEUGH I HOPE YOUR BACK FEELS BETTER TOO THAT SOUNDS FUCKING AWFUL AAA *rubs ur back*
*whispers back* fuck yes calvin and hobes
Demons? oAo
YOU SHOULD ASK THEM AHHHH-
Also I don't feel sick anymore! well. A little nauseous but not as bad. Tbh I only drank as a means of over dosing and killing myself, but as you see. :I That didn't work. I'm sorry. *doesn't want to tell anyone about this or admit I did overdose*
AAAAAH- I'm sorry. I was just so fucking depressed, and lonely. I'm surrounded by people that only care about themselves, and shdsjfks- I feel like i'm literally here to just make people feel better about themselves, or ugh. Idk. I was listening to the things in my head, though I am not crazy, I just hear voices sometimes, and sometimes they get quite persuasive. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Fuck.
ReplyDeleteCheese, i am a very selfish person but the things i do i do for you okay? the only reason...i live...is for..you...//gasps for breath// you make me feel like a better person but in turn i wann make youfeel like a better person too, okay?? MY PARENTS KEEP FUCKING CALLING MY AND DON'T WANT TO BE AROUND THEM BETWEEN CRYING OVER YOU AND THEM MAKING ME FEEL LIKE SHIT FOR EATING RICE //GRABS FACE// UGH i'll be right back
ReplyDeleteI'm in so much pain in my head. I just want it to go away, I can't vent as clearly as other people do, so I find it useless to even try. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have even tried. I regret it entirely. I haven't even told Alyssa, the person I tell everything to, for fear she might kill me herself. and also how upset she'll get with me bfdsjfhs- I'm a fucking mess.
ReplyDeleteIt's not you! But ah, I'm sorry. I just. When I'm upset I turn off everything, and just?? Do shit I regret. Like once I tried stabbing a knife through my hand, and uGHH.
ReplyDeleteI'm a shit person to be honest, I don't even know why I'm forced to be here. Alive. I'm just. So depressed. I wish you could be my reason for living, but. dsfhgfdjs- I find that kind of abusive? In a way? Sort of? Idk.
WHY THE HELL ARE THEY GIVING YOU SHIT ABOUT RICE????
I can't even word like my parents and were showing down in the pantry and my mom was like i woke because i heard my mom say i think aileen ate the rice and i was like oh shit
ReplyDeletebut like i tried to explain that there was not any shit to eat in the house but theres food now so she doesn't believe me :u
and like i went downstairs to own up to it and be like i'll buy you another fucking rice i'm sorry i didn't tell you about it but then shit hit the fan.
and i was just thinking about adam and eve and my dad said "i feel like i've heard this story before" and istartfuckinglaughing
*holds your head* i mean it seriously fucking upsets me that you even tried but i would be more hurt if you never told me because i would like to know *hugs tightly and kisses your forehead* don't tell her until you're ready to
we'll move and leave our messes sorta behind.
when i'm upset it leaks out of my face and it upsets me more until it leaves scars on my body.
Dude please make me your reason i don't fucking care :u //sweet dreams starts playing in head//
basically they had asked me not eat the rice but there was fucking no food here :u
also the fact i can't word...
ReplyDeletei can't word verbally but
...these words are all i got so i write them
to quote fall out boy
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ReplyDelete//really hopes you're doing something like watching a movie or something//
ReplyDelete//really really hopes you're okay and slinks back into bed//
ReplyDeleteUgh. Your mom. dsdhjskdhjsa-
ReplyDeleteSame here, sorry for doing the do.
Also I'm sorry about not messaging, I moved my desktop upstairs because mom needed room for the houseplants, dnfbsfjsa and blogger is fucking up on the computer? Like sometimes it doesn't log me in at all?? Like incorrect password?? I'm sorry. bdfdj how are things? *checks phone*...*sees how many times u called me* OMG I ALSO HAVE BEEN GONE ALL DAY WITH MOM AND GRANDMA I'M SORRY AHHHH
oh my god
ReplyDeletei am really at a loss for words right now like i'm just repeating oh my god. like i have been so fucking worried you don't even know ahh i have the biggest fucking smile now though :u
ReplyDeletei can't even answer your question man i'm sorry basically i was super worried like i've lost five pounds?? and i'm sorry blogger is being bogus.
ReplyDeletehow many times did i call you i'm sorry ahhh
how are things with you??
what if there was an alternate universe where people loved showers and like there were mobile showers and showers were literally EVERYWHERE and we had to go to war with them because they were using up too much water and they thought our clothes were so weird they got scared and we won this war because of our clothes??
ReplyDeletei swear to god i'm not high or tired i was just sitting here playing 2048 and THIS FUCKING THOUGHT POPS INTO MY HEAD AND I KNEW IT WOULD KILL TO ME TO FORGET IT SO
stress holy shit wow //makes a huge mess looking for my little notebook// damn i miss you //wipes face// i can't find it //literally throws everything on the floor and realizes that isn't going to help//
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ReplyDeleteRIGHT AFTER U WENT HOME MOM FOUND AN ADAPTER THING AND NOW I HAVE INTERNETS LE FUCK YES. Also I'm sorry for whatever I may have done to anger you, in a ny way. I do that with people haha// all th e fucking tim eee ALSO THE IDEA ABOUT HAVING SHOWERS EVERYWHERE IS FUCKING FUNNY// BUT COOL. I love it. I love u.
ReplyDeleteI wish google+ worked for you ghdfgjfdghjdf I wanna IM u all da time
My days haave consisted of being depressed, and thinking about death tbh. for some reason my thoughts have gotten worse? I refuse help from the fucking wards. I hate being stared at by the doctors, and watched constantly eugh. I'm so full of hatred, and I'm pushing people away. I've been using my moms shit laptop to google+ you, and eughh just using that thing makes me so fucking angry, because it's so fucked up. =c=
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad I got to talk to you today, thank you.
That really made me happy, which is hard to come by these days. orz *sulksulk smashes into bed*
I love you.
YOU DID A THING AND YOUR BLOG ISN'T BLOG ISN'T BLACK ANYMORE AND YAY ; u ; this will probably be like the only time i will ever get... as.. mad as i did man.. just.. remember that i'm fucking here okay??
ReplyDelete//makes noises//
i just wanna be there by your side i would watch you all the fucking time though just you would never get rid of me i swear to god :u BECAUSE NEGATIVES MAKE EACH OTHER POSTIVE AND
my sister just ran into the bathroom and like i need to use that.... cause..ahh
I HAVE NO IDEA HOW THE CHAT WORKS FOR THIS http://www.kidzworld.com/ BUT LIKE?? i can't validate shit man ; . ; //this is only the second time i have lied about my age on the the internets//
SAME I LOVE TALKING TO YOU. YOUR TIMING IS HORRIBLE THOUGH. I HAVE LIKE 20 MINUTES SOMETIMES 10 AND AHH
I FEEL A LOT BETTER
your letter should be there thursday :u
also i have arts on my blog??
ReplyDeletei love you so much i accidentally closed all my tabs with my keyboard spasm :u
ReplyDeleteSUPERNATURAL BEGINS TONIGHT AND AHH I'M SO EXCITED IT'S SO AMAZING I AJFKAJSF;LKSWU0
ReplyDeleteiloveyoucheese<3
WELL. there was no interview but i applied and the dude said he'd be calling me back :u
ReplyDeletewww.youtube.com/watch?v=1g8ba4aeL24 //puts this here so i won't forget about it//
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ReplyDeletedon't push me away dammit
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ReplyDeleteIn a way, it was something you did, to be honest. I feel suffocated with your words, telling me i'm your reason for living. I don't take kindly to that. For one thing.
ReplyDeleteI just. Really need time to think, I'm not pushing anyone away, I'm just going kinda?? nuts?? Idk how to explain it, but I'm the only person that can help myself, and that's going to take some time,
I have to apologize, because I'm the one who was, and idk still am? Causing you pain
"don't. apologize. don't say you are sorry. just don't, please. i should be asleep right now. i can't though. i'm sorry for suffocating you. that was never what i meant to do.
ReplyDeletei just...want to help but i don't even fucking know how to. i mean..yeah. "Life is full of black holes, and the only person who can pull you out is you" but i would still like to help in any way i could. because i would. i just. ugh. i'm just really STUPID and this was almost like chrissy again. my fault.she stopped talking to me though and i hope this won't become like that. //hopes that we can at least be friends//
so don't apologize. i can't stand it. it'll piss me off. like anyone who says it.
and yeah. pain. don't even. get me started.
AHAH, THIS DUDE FOUGHT OFF THIS FOX WITH BREAD PFFT and it could have had RABIES OMG
so take your time to think. i will...still be here."
Since you don't have the laptop or whatnot anymore, guess I'll try to use this? I've been going through a straight up shit storm lately, and everything is fucking upsetting me. My mom's going against me because of drugs, and so is Randy. I've been throwing up for day's, and wow. Death sounds really welcoming, and I can't stop thinking of the way to end myself.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for your pain, I wish I could ease it, and whatnot. But you know what? I can't. I wish I had some kind of inspirational thing to say, but, yeah. nah.
I'm going to just start ignoring everyone, because it's just making me feel shittier, and I hope you understand.
I don't really know what to say.
I'm sorry doesn't cut it I suppose, for some reason? Nothing I say is going to help you not hurt, and whatnot. Being I think I broke you beyond repair, for a long while.
I'm p useless when it comes to emotions, and understanding them. So I wish you luck in whatever.
people are just making me feel shittier*
ReplyDelete//cries because i'm going to have to type all over again/flees to word/is surprised// dude i’m sorry. I feel you, sorta in way?? why is randy even getting involved? i’m sorry you’ve been puking for days but don’t end yourself. because it’ll pass. “you have no responsibility to anyone but yourself to live. BUT I’M DEAD, you would tell us. I’M ALREADY DEAD. no, we’d argue. no you are not. your future self is still alive. you have a responsibility to your future self, who is someone you might not even know yet, might not even understand yet. because until you die, that future self has as much of a life as you do. We can see that future self, even if you can’t. we can see them. you are not worthless, we shout to you. your life is not disposable. you think you will never find a place. you think your pain is the only emotion you will ever feel. you think nothing else will ever come close to being as strong as that pain. you are certain of this. in this minute- in this, the most important minute of your life- you are certain you must die. you no other option. you need to wake up, we cry.” this is from that book I read, two boys kissing.
ReplyDeletei'm glad you understand that you can’t. and i was never looking for you to ease any pain i feel. that’s my job yo.
yeah, people are bogus. if i didn’t need them so fucking much i'd do the same.
idk what really to say either man.
never does :u i guess talking to you helps somewhat, a little. to know i'm not completely losing you. idk. but don’t worry about it, ash. i'm serious. this won’t be like chrissy all over again because i refuse to blame anyone but myself. “you almost made me cry again this time. well time i'm not going to watch myself die.” <:u just don’t. and i was okay with what you wrote it was the twins that greatly upset me, ahah. anywhore my parents are back and scaring the fuck out of me like… it feels like a weight is hanging over me. i feel like puking and i almost did.
before you ever decide to finally off yourself //cringes inwardly at the thought// do you think you could at least move out and try to life?? don’t let your soul be tied down to a place you don’t like, yo. just try life somewhere new. like chicago :u idk what i'm even trying to say. but the question is do you understand??
<basically me
ReplyDeletewhere the <:u is
also what does SPD stand for everything i googled said sensory processing disorder :u idk if that's what it is :u
ReplyDeletealso on one of the pages idk if you remember but like, its the one where you drew randy and tori getting arrested and i can barely read that thing you wrote and its bugging me but it's someting about if he's in his for enough time //HOLDS PAPER UP AND SQUINTS INTENSELY// he can't speak and...interact... his other senses?? is that what it says i sorta have a headache ahh. sometimes almost killing himself. that picture made me tear up a little. poor floyd yo.
if he's in his head for long enough he can't speak and interact with his other senses??
ReplyDeleteidk what it says tbh. you probably don't remember either but alja;
when you read a manga that touches you so deeply you can't. that is life. also pulling clothes right from the dryer yo.
ReplyDeleteand cheese omnomnom
Ay, can't stop thinking about you, every day, every second it seems like. Don't know why I'm writing this, but I miss you.
ReplyDeleteI just really needed a break, from everything.
I really hope you're okay.
Why am I even doing this- I just can't get you out of my head, siGHS LOUDLY
Sorry.
//stares// every day, every second. sometimes even dreams. i can't stop seeing you in things.
ReplyDeletei know, you made that clear. i miss you too, i think i wrote that in the letter, that i miss talking to you
i'm fine, now. today is my birthday, i hope it goes well. and i hope you're okay too?
i don't know why you did it, i'm surprised as well- welcome to the club, cheese. //chews on hoodie string//
don't even.
dreams are bogus.
ReplyDeletecanaan drew me a dragon ; u ; it just went. like any other day. another dose of "hey you aren't special and it doesn't even matter." plus i got a sore throat, hella.
OD on nyquil i'm tired as shit. plus coffee, i should be out right now.
i just get insanely pissed off, or insanely sad, or insanely happy. fuck this i hate it i want some middle ground
i was rly confused about when it was supposed to show up. //bashes you with pillow// go outside, as in, just sit outside your door if you have to. who says you need to do anything. lay in grass, take a nap outside if you can.
about the hellhound, i got lazy, really lazy and i was just nah.
its from a sketch book i stole actually :u you should have at least 8 pages of it.
been drawing eyeballs a lot as of late.
i actually forgot to send a picture and i was so upset because it was francis. its old and what not but i remember spending so much time on his hair. n eyes. next time.
ye, oscar ; . ; //looks back through google to pick out another random character// the ginger needs a name, yo. i was sorta happy with the picture. and his hands hella
i don't see it but i'll take your word for it //only sees improvement in how i draw transit// i know it's not funny lolol you've improved a lot too you know :u
FUCK YES I GOT THE 69TH COMMENT AHAHAH
dreams are rad, but can be bogus, haha.
ReplyDelete;v; ooooh- ah. dang. D: I'm sorry, yo.
Ohmygod Nyquil- B) That shits the bomb, though it makes me feel so ded...oh so ded.
*nodnods*
When what was supposed to show up? *tilts head*
Lmfao fuck the outdoors, it keeps randomly snowing, and ugh. I dislike the city, I miss living surrounded by the woods, and wildlife scREAMS S I MISS THE SOUND OF A CONSTANT STREAM HHh h that shit's fuckin' wicked. =c= Peaceful.
You should draw teh hellhound more! I think it's a p cool concept tbh.
Eyeballs are wicked 2 draw, and addicting heuheu-
Idk how you can't see you're improvement, I mean damn mAN You improved so quickly, B)
*pappaps* thank you, though ha HA HA HA FUCKIN' ARTBLOCK SHITSTORMS ONTO MY THINKING MUSCLE AGAIN LMAO
The best comment B)
Sorry for not messagin' back sooner,but I've been quite blazed, and pissy haha.
I'm sending a shit letter out tomorrow, so be on the look-out. =c=
or not. Whatever.
My friend frown offered to send me LSD and holy fuCK K- she super rad. 2 rad 4 me
Tru
ReplyDeleteHella B)
OH MAN, I have a hate/love relationship with snow, like around January it gets kind of tiring, shoveling it out of the driveway dfhfskjdshk
I'mSorryAh
My old art is sickening, buT IT DOES HELP with helping you realize yo improvement, n stuff- ye.
Arts is 2 much 4 me 2 handle- i can't keep a consistent style hughh
HEUHEUE- OH NO. AHH. That's good you're trying not to relapse! I'm proud of ya. c;
What made you sad? ;o; oh nooo headphones wahhh
Lisa said it's really relaxing, though you smile, and laugh a lot. And your stomach burns, but not like alcohol does ideK
I'm sorry D: Ahhhhh-
What's Half-Baked? *tilts head* Guessing its a movie?
oh ye, dreams. i wish i could remember them
ReplyDeleteWHO NEEDS PARENTS i'm 18 and i need a job so i can gtfo
WHEN I GET THERE, I WOULD TOTES HELP MAN i'll probably end up playing in it at first though, until i get way too cold.
youshouldbe.
old art makes me laugh like "this is really gross ew but i can't throw it out i'll redraw it."
art is 2 much 4 every1. consistency is stupid. but i can't either. when i have trouble drawing i know i'm going through a style change ; - ; AND THEN LIKE POOOOF SPECTACULAR ARTS and then it dies //cycles//
"tori i'm sorry for laughing i was reading and typing and ahh" i hope u understand that.
hmm, what made me sad? my parents were being shits, or i'm being too fucking sensitive, i'm feeling a lot of oppression, and i just want to open a vein in my wrist like the visual i got was spectacular. but i could never go that deep yo. and then moo gets on and i mention gabbi and then he says he's angry but not at me and leaves and i got really fucking upset because you can tell me all u want it's not my fault and i almost let him make me break my promise. no relapse for my 18th birthday i can fucking do it i can i can i can i can i hope ; - ;
i wanna relax smile and laugh a lot ;-; i've never had alcohol burn my stomach. just..that vodka though..one time
stopit
YEA IT'S A MOVIE ABOUT THE TANGERINES.
SPEAKING OF TANGERINES, I MAY BE SMOKING TANGERINES W/MY FRIEND CANAAN IN A FEW WEEKS ; v ; there's an initiation though: jumping from her balcony onto the trampoline and i'm just ";-; im afraid of heights tho" annndddd i'll be taking my guitar so she can fix it . u . my fingers are wimpy and i can't find my pick ; - ; oh and i'll be smoking with her mom //excited as fuck really// I'M GONNA MEET BRODY AND I'VE HEARD SO MANY STORIES ABOUT HIM LIKE HE'S ONLY 9 BUT HE'S SO FUCKING COOL ASH I CANNOOOT